Generic

I have never been a generic girl. I've always sung my own tune. When I was younger (a.k.a a teenager), I purposefully tried to go against the grain. Remember all of those adults telling asking you something to the equivalent of, "If everyone else were jumping off of a cliff would you jump too?" Well, for some reason I internalized this to the nth degree. If someone said, "It's the cool thing." or "Everyone else is doing it." I would be immediately turned off to it. Never would I consider doing it. Ever. Some would call me a rebel, some would say I was obstinate, I didn't care what they thought and still don't. I think a big part of this singing my own tune thing is that I have never really cared what others think. I don't mean that insincerely. I really mean it. I don't understand what it's like to not like yourself. As long as I'm healthy I don't care about my weight (I'm happy when I'm within my BMI and am happy working hard to be within it if I'm not). Make-up is for dressing up, not for everyday for me. I am a jeans and t-shirt kind of girl. If I like a style I'll wear it doesn't matter if it's not in vogue or it's weird. My hair does not stay put and well-kept no matter what I do to it. I pity people who think you have to wear make-up and have to fit into a certain size jeans no matter how tall you are. You get the idea. I've dealt with depression since I was 12 but even when at the lowest of my lows I've never not liked myself (for those of you who don't understand this, depression isn't just about liking yourself, for me it's feeling lonely). I revel in who I am. I really used to take joy in the fact that I made others feel awkward, though I'm not that way anymore, I mostly just feel pity for those people who feel awkward or embarrassed. Anyway, I promise this relates, turns out I'm really crafty and I really enjoy it. I really like blogging about my family and whatever I feel like. I don't have to assert my intelligence on others by talking about deep material. I don't care if people know I'm smart or not. I like to go running. I enjoy cooking. Recently, I've heard lots of people dissing on these kinds of enjoyable things because they're stereotypical. I'm not so much of a go against the grain person anymore; I've become a make my own grain person. It shouldn't matter if something is stereotypical. Do it anyway. If something makes you happy, it doesn't matter what it is (as long as it's not against the laws of God). Everyone has different opinions and that's a wonderful thing. My opinion is that I just wish that everyone were able to be as happy as I am because I take such joy in the things I do and I don't care what others think about what I do. I do the things I do because they make me happy. I will not apologize for being who I am and if I want to do something stereotypical or atypical, you had better believe that I'm going to do it and be happy. To Sum Up: I love my agency and I will use it regardless of who and how I'm judged (except God). Now, go do something that makes you happy!

Also, I hope you found as much humor as I did in my saying, "I just wish that everyone were able to be as happy as I am" :)